This Isnt The Creatures Under My Bed....
Posted 29 March 2016 - 04:28 PM
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Posted 29 March 2016 - 04:41 PM
My mom told me as far as shes concerned she has only a son. not her daughter. Which Kills me inside. My boyfriend is my whole world and he wants to give up....
I feel alone....I have nobody else... They're it....
Posted 29 March 2016 - 04:59 PM
Posted 29 March 2016 - 05:12 PM
Well anyway..... Thanks... I'll see you guys ig
Posted 29 March 2016 - 06:20 PM
So your mom is angry with you and lunges out and says you are an accident. She was obviously mad at the time. And so what, even if that were the case in her mind, you are in actuality, a brave, beautiful, caring and amazing person. Think about it, because you know it's true. That's the person I'm seeing in my mind. And yes, you need some help & support. And you will find it but not by giving up! Start by asking your boyfriend to toughen up for the both of you! Calling it quits will leave you exactly where you are now, nowhere. And if you're considering ending your life, think again! There's not a lot of glory on the other side for quitters. If you're looking for a way out of this, then stop thinking that escape is the answer because it's only leaving you at a dead stop.
Right now you're doing it all wrong. Start by putting any thought of escape, out of your mind... that's not what you really want anyway. What you want and need is love, kindness and support. And the way to find it is to be positive because positive attracts positive and that will move you in the right direction. Don't be around people that are pulling you down. Make things right with your mom even if it's all on you and all one-sided at first. She will come around. She's the piece in the puzzle you need right now. Your emotions are frail and your mind is weak. So look for medical help as well. You are probably already seeing someone... and if that's the case, let them know it's not working. A change of prescription or mental exercises are in order or whatever else it takes. But see someone this week. And I don't have to tell you this, but there are hot lines out there for a reason. So if things get worse, make a call.
You'll get through this but unfortunately, it's all on you right now and that's okay, because you're tougher than you think!
Posted 29 March 2016 - 06:49 PM
Stripes I understand how you're feeling in a way because I have dealt with depression too after my baby brother has passed I had succumbed to depression and even at one point thought of ending it all that and finding out that my uncle was a pedophile and having kids at my school making fun of me because of him was the worst and lowest point in my life.
I never thought id be a happy person again but life in fact does get better and I began to realize that those people are toxic and did not deserve to be involved in my life whatsoever so I cut them off completely and I began to spend a lot of time completely alone so I could better understand who I was as a person and eventually my depression anxiety and self hate faded away.
Please note that this may or may not work for you as everybody is different and you should surround yourself with friends who are loving and caring go out explore meet new people and just try to have as much fun as you can.
I only share my personal experiences with you because I want you to know life is precious and very unpredictable meaning anybody anytime anywhere can enter it and change the way you think and see things completely for the better, so stay strong and get better.
Posted 29 March 2016 - 08:14 PM
And thank you for sharing your experiences and your wisdom!
Some may think this is just a pity party and avoid this topic completely... but who are we to judge, right?
Get better kid, we're pulling for you!
Posted 30 March 2016 - 03:20 AM
You definitely do want to exist, even if you are not feeling it at the moment. Time is your friend here, and if you give yourself enough time you will come out of this ok. There are many wonderful experiences waiting for you in this world, and more than 7 billion people you can meet. The possibilities are amazing, and you just need to give yourself time to learn how to embrace them.
Posted 30 March 2016 - 04:52 AM
I think some people also avoid topics like this because they don't know what to say or they don't want to say the wrong thing.
There are a lot of people out there that want to help and support you. You just need to reach out and grab their hands and don't stop reaching until you find that person you feel comfortable with to help you. Life is wonderful, be the survivor, not the victim. Learn to love yourself first, find one thing each morning that you are grateful to see and choose life.
All my children were accidents, I love them dearly and I chose to have them. I am sorry your mother's words hurt you; mother's aren't always right.
Posted 30 March 2016 - 07:53 AM
Posted 30 March 2016 - 10:03 AM
The words shared were for you and all the lurkers/members out that that are in a similar place.
Let's get out there and make this day better for us and for those around us!
Posted 30 March 2016 - 12:36 PM
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Posted 30 March 2016 - 05:08 PM
I have never hurt so bad in my life as to hear those words but I needed to hear them. This is not what your father wants for you. I am a product of my mother's affair - every time she looks at me & I am 44, she sees her mistake, not me. I can't imagine any biological father loving their child more than the man that raised me as his own. I can't ask him these questions now because he is gone. I don't have to, as he taught me this long before passing.
Don't look at yourself as you have written here - look at yourself as the the small, innocent & worthy person that your father saw & sees.
My apologies for the unsolicited advice - but I know how dark it is right now - but it will not be forever.
Just don't you give up on you.