Posted 10 March 2023 - 09:12 PM
I agree - I have a high regard for people that have prophetic dreams. To me it's a gift, that I do not have. I am sure they can be very disturbing, but in the end I believe they each hold a valuable purpose. I think they warn you (personally) like what happened with Captain, maybe some to warn others. For the last 3 nights I have had horrible nightmares that I've lost someone very close to me and very unexpectedly. I wake up with this horrible heavy feeling of dread, to the point last night I actually took a medicine that I use for sleep and have for years - since college. It can also be used as a fast acting anti anxiety medication, so honestly I did take a little more and didn't go back to sleep. Today is my daughter's 26th birthday and if something should happen to her, I couldn't make it a single second longer. But in my dream she's on the phone and whoever is telling her who it is that's gone. I keep asking 'Sara, is it my dad?' She dosen't say the word 'yes' but indicates it is and I drop to my knees completely lost and inconsolable. My father passed in 1991, I was 19 and we we're very close, he was my world -I was numb, lost and so alone. He's all I had as my mother (which truly is fine and everyone makes mistakes - I hold no resentment at all toward her and we are great today) but after my father's death things he said made sense! He was preparing me because he knew 1 day I would find out and the reason my mother didn't want me was because I was the product of an affair but he never told me, just enough to prepare me. I believe each time she looked at me, it was a constant reminder of a mistake and that she hurt my father. I actually heard her yelling at my dad saying "I didn't want her, but you insisted on raising her like she's your own child.' I was 8 at the time and sadly they saw me standing in the doorway and knew I heard everything. It didn't hurt me, but instantly gained even more respect for a man that would do that when he did not have to, I just felt even happier my dad must really love me and I never felt at anytime I was not his. Now when you look at our family photos this is hillarious but no one seems to catch on - everyone except me has dark hair, dark complection, dark eyes then there's me LOL blonde, now silver and white, a blue eye and a green eye and a fair complection unless I tan. I never told my brothers or sister because we were adults and no one needed to know. It was something that happened, but it was ok. I only said to my mother about 15 years ago because she had such resentment in her words and eyes when she spoke to me, I told her simply - your're my mother even if you're not elated by the fact, but I want you to forgive yourself, Dad did and so can you (and he did and I think she'll always have the regret of hurting my father with the affair, he loved my mother and she loved him. But maybe she will get past me being a reminder of something she's ashamed of. But I was never angry by the past I never cared about that, it gave dad and I a closer relationship so I gained (?) by this. I know she's come a long way and I was 40 the 1st time she told me she loved me, I believe her. I thought a little background my give someone an indication or impression on why I am having this dream 3 nights in a row. My apologies for the novel length post but again just thought I would put it out there. The only other thing is when Sara was just out of high school (2015) I was folding clothes one night and saw a scene with her in it. Saw in my mind but I think of it every single day and will gladly give you those details if you want. As soon as it was over and I remember every detail, she called and asked what was wrong, she felt something wasn't right and wanted to check on me. I told her I was missing her and I guess she picked up on it. I never told her what I saw, but in the end it was her saying goodbye to me, that she was fine and we told each other "I love you" she said I will see you again and soon mom, do not worry I am great and please do not be sad. Again I was folding clothes, awake. But it is so clear to me - every detail. So is there a difference in these 2 experiences? 1 being asleep and 1 being a flash of a vision(?) Again sorry for the long post guys.