Posted 22 August 2019 - 08:01 AM
I apologize ahead of time for the lengthy post.
Between the ages of 14 and 16, it was not uncommon to wake up and have the sensation of being spooned or cuddled in a possessive manner. If I were laying on my back, I would feel a "body" turned toward me with an arm and a leg laying over me. I quickly learned that this served at least one purpose and that was to pin me down when I woke. 95% of the time I could not speak either as I could feel a hand around my throat. This only lasted seconds. I realized that it seems for a entity(low level, at least) to interact in this physical reality, it takes a lot of effort, and it wanes almost immediately. So, the moment I tried to speak I would feel a tight grip of a hand and although the first time this happened, it was alarming because I also couldn't breathe, I noticed right away that the grip was weakening until finally I was able to speak. It was like it was buying a few more seconds with me until it had to leave. I always chose to keep my eyes closed but it was cleared this thing wanted me to look at it...in my mind, I couldn't unsee that, so the whole 2 years, I only opened my eyes once and that was on the last night I had an issue like this. Every night was different. Some nights, when I struggled to be free, I would feel the excruciating pain of a hand digging under my ribs or my inner thigh. I heard a language spoken that I didn't understand but was like nails on a chalkboard in its effects. I was also spoken to in english. Although not vulgar, I will keep what was said to myself.
I remember one time, my dad left me at a friend and her family's house while he went out of town for the night to check on his dad. I slept in the same bed as my friend who was in her early 20's. She warned me that she snored and hoped she wouldn't disturb me. I was happy to be there because I just "knew" I would be safe this night. In the middle of the night, I woke to hear my dad's voice telling me he is back and to get up so we can go home. Now, at the beginning of this sentence, with my eyes still closed I move to get up, but midway in the sentence I began to hear my dads voice morph into another voice I recognized. Before he even completed the sentence I turned back toward my friend and instinctively grabbed onto the poles on her headboard, and not a moment too soon as I was grabbed around the ankles and pulled hard enough, I would of been pulled off the bed no question. I wasn't going to let go....I knew I just had to wait it out. This thing was laughing. I felt safe to open my eyes and look at my friend. She was sound asleep and I just remember the feeling of helplessness that I was in this whole situation alone, for the the whole two years. Here I was hearing audible sound and being assaulted and it did not wake the person next to me. The second it let go, I scrambled to get my lower half of my body back in bed and under the sheets. The next morning ,at the breakfast table, my friend asked if her snoring woke me up. I just looked at her, remembering what actually woke me, and told her not at all. I was very embarrassed of my experiences and did not share them with anyone until years later. It was alluded to me during my formative years that if a person has these kind of issues, they were doing something they shouldn't be. I knew after the fear and sometimes physical pain, the last thing I needed was to confide in someone who was going to turn it around on me, and look at me with a skeptical eye. I no longer believe that. Although, I do believe people can draw negative entities through certain means, I also believe that innocent people can be affected for no apparent reason. The last evening I had an issue I got in a physical fight with it...after two years I was no longer scared. I was mad. During the fight I did open my eyes unintentionally for a brief second and saw a transparent fist come at me. I won't finish that story except to say the struggle lasted for several minutes, but I won.
I believe sleep paralysis does affect a lot of people, and it would be alarming to wake up before your body does, but unfortunately, I personally did not suffer from that phenomenon. I also believe we are most vulnerable when we are not on our feet, and a lot of people are actually being harassed by an entity. I think if this is a reoccurring thing for someone, they need to possibly consider the experience from a paranormal aspect, especially if there are more details than just paralysis.