Posted 27 October 2004 - 09:47 AM
Sleep paralysis is kind of a touchy yet passionate problem for me. I've also suffered for years and have suffered many different forms. Things have pretty much subsided latley to the point that I only suffer the tingly paralysis which then veers off in to that floaty feeling, about once a month.
Due to dealing with this condition and researching, I've developed a few thoughts and theories. It seemed to be at it's worst while here in TN not that long ago. And for those of you that don't know, there was a lot of activity going on here. Activity that my brain's still having a hard time grasping. I've been told by people that have been able to tap in to what's been going on around here, that I had an earthbound spirit that died at the hands of a not so nice man. She was drawn to me 'cause I was in tune and she was scared and confused.
Due to my religious beliefs, I'm having a hard time grasping demonic presences in that name alone but I do believe that all of us can fall to either good forces or bad forces. We have Guides on both sides of the fences and it's all about our choices as to whom we decide to follow. My friend that was earthbound, had lost her Guides due to her confusion. Her killer, (whom had also passed) left more of his dark forces behind to contend with those issues as those were the Guides he choosed to follow. The more I delved in to what was going on around here, the more I seemed to stir up this dark force. He wasn't happy about losing control and having someone nose in to his business.
Mainly it all started with these very lucid, recurring dreams about a green car that was seen just off our property line, smashed in to a tree with severe front impact. There were later dreams of barns and a house. Unfortunately, this dark presence really made himself known when I later found all the above mentioned things for real. I believe that all these things were related and tied in together. My eathbound having been in a car accident, possibly being held captive at this house and later met her demise and I feel is quite possibly buried at one of those barns. Were these out of body experiences? If not, I find it an awful odd coincidence that they appeared as they did in my "dreams" and the times I found them, I had no intention of going in the direction I ended up. It was like something was guiding me and I let it.
Right after I discovered my barns, I had a not so nice sleep paralysis encounter where this dark force involved decided I was getting a little too close for his comfort. It happened in the afternoon and I awoke basically (to make a long, strange story short) to him on my wall. Swirling black mass with a very red face and even redder eyes that seemed to glow from within. With him, he had a grayish, blobby mass at the end of my bed. The best I could describe him would be a child's crude-like drawing of a ghost/monster.
With my paranormal SP (sleep paralysis) encounters, even though I feel the usual tingly, paralysed sensation but I also got these feelings that I've learned to associate with my ghostly visitations; muddled brain, bodily heaviness, slowed reflexes, also a tingling sensation but usually more localized to one area, crackly energy and of course, that feeling that you're not alone. Neeless to say, I've learned to trust my gut instince because too many times have I second guessed and been let down. Something we all need to start doing.
Not being able to think too clearly, I was trying to figure out what I had posted on the wall there that was red. Right about the time I figured out there was nothing, (took me a bit due to my poor muddled brain) I knew I was in trouble.
He then launched himself off the wall at me. Here's where it breaks the usual SP mode. I wasn't fully paralysed and was able to lift my head in order to look at the wall. When he launched himself at me, my head got slammed back to the bed. In my fight, usually wiggling extremities will help break the SP. I was able to lift my arms and once I did that, they then got slammed back down. With immense strength and a few choice words, I was finally able to fight him off. How many people do you know that suffer extreme body aches and pains due to a bout of SP?
This is why the subject's so touchy for me. This is just one of the many bouts of SP I've had, majority regular but definately quite a few with paranormal undercurrents. I do believe in the scientific fact that the brain shuts the body down in order to keep us from acting out our dreams and upon waking, there's a misfire that forgets to turn our body back on. Sleepwalker's also fall in to this category only the opposite happens and the misfire forgets to turn the body off. If one seriously researches the SP phenomenon, you'll notice that the vast majority of sufferers are prone or on their back. I've had them in all positions. The majority experience that chest heaviness and a smothering effect. This has been one of the minimal side effects for me. Most experience that all over body tingle. Mine's mostly in one area at a time. They also last usually no more than a minute. I've never been able to time mine but I can guarantee you, they last much longer than that.
Now tell me, does that fit the regular sleep paralysis bill?
A theory I've come up with is while we're having our SP attacks, we're somehow more susceptible to the paranormal. Think about it... it's a very unsettling situation so we give off massive amounts of energy, right? Think about how tired you feel after a good scare or a good cry or temper tantrum? Once the adrenaline wears off, we're pretty drained, right? There's their source of fuel, our energy! Also, throw in the fact that we're paralysed and totally at their mercy, what perfect opportunity we present them with.
I somehow believe that those of us that are more sensitive to the goings on with the paranormal, we're giving them the open door that they need.
Sorry if I seem a little defensive but I've just heard far too many people try to lump me in to the scientific explanation. To me it seems odd that my SP bouts were at their peak when my extreme activity around here was as well. Also worth noting, I might have a bout once a month now. They're all the nice, floaty, tingly sensation bouts.
SP doesn't scare me now when I feel these regular symptoms. It's when I feel the more intense ones that I really start to get my guard up, as you can well imagine. Which I haven't felt since I've been able to help my earthbound "friend" cross over, might I add.
Carpe diem, quam minimum credula postero
Seize the day, trust as little as possible in tomorrow